I’m not unhappy. I could just be happier.
I need to tell you something.
I stayed home this weekend. I was satisfied. I wasn’t jealous of anyone who’s out and having fun. It was a bed weather all weekend, I felt lazy and chose to watch movies and catch up on TV series than go out. I liked my choice. Also, I was in touch with few of the closest friends who are away.
- Two are expecting to give birth soon.
- Two are planning to have a baby
- One got into an accident.
Something’s happening to them and that, I think is what I’m missing.
Looking back, I’ve had phases in my life when I was so enthusiastic about something. There was a time, that I was into photography. Another time, I was running or badminton, rowing, or traveling every month, fund raising for friends, or photo shoots, or editing videos and pictures.
It has been 3 months since something was up. It dawned on me that this is the rest. I’ve been asking for. But, I have to go back to being enthusiastic, to being me, not the lazy, lethargic, homebody, with a work-home-church routine before I become a zombie.
I’m not unhappy. I could just be happier.
I could dance my way out of this state by diving into the unknown or fly to where the sun sets. Whatever and whenever that bold move will be, you’ll sure hear about it here.
Good night.
